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Honestly epicurean
A little wild around the edges
A lover at heart
Warrior in my spare time
Princess on Sundays
Love witch

Like so many others, I played along and tried to fit into the box for a long time. But the more I tried to fit in, the more I felt like a square peg in a round hole.

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Then life brought me what I needed to wake up. The awakening was brutal, painful, a deep feeling of falling into a bottomless pit. No visibility on the emergency exit. I had no choice but to let myself slide because resisting would only cause more harm.

For the first time in my life, I had to face my greatest enemy, the one I had been avoiding by setting up all kinds of strategies: loneliness. I had to face it, so I went to meet it. Not because I wanted to, not by choice, but sometimes the Universe puts on your path what you need to be reborn.

After multiple detours, twists and turns, learning, trials, meetings, depression, ecstasy, and orgasms, I tamed that loneliness to finally become intimate with myself. I let go of people, relationships, conditioning, false beliefs or limiting beliefs, expectations, goals.

In their place, I found pleasure, desires, simplicity, peace, and above all, much, much more love and tenderness. With myself, with others, with the world.

I went to meet my inner world so that today I no longer have to flee from it.

I could tell you my story but honestly it would be boring.

I could talk about my happy and free childhood in the mountains...and the construction of the perfect little girl...because I was afraid that I wouldn't be loved.

I could list for you the number of diplomas...never enough to make me feel legitimate...it was never enough, or too much, or something was missing. I could talk about my sex life...and all those times I had sex when my body said no...but I was afraid of being rejected.

I could talk about my married life, the family I built...in which I locked myself up...because I was afraid of being myself.

I could talk about my daughter, this wonderful person...the powerful mirror that she is...and the devouring guilt because sometimes I didn't want to play the role of mother.

I could talk about my addictive behaviors and all the escape strategies, the crutches...because life hurt on the inside...and who am I, privileged in this world, to complain?

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I have no regrets about this journey and if I had to do it again I would do exactly the same. Because this path has allowed me to be where I am today. And to arrive at this coin.

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ONE coin, TWO sides

One doesn't exist without the other

Like night doesn't exist without day

My path led me here

To this coin

To understand that by fighting my shadows,

my imperfections, my weaknesses,

I am constantly in conflict

And that when we live in conflict, we live in fear

To understand that I am everything, and full of contradictions

To understand that I am human and that is enough

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I am humble and arrogant

I am interesting and boring

I am sad and funny

I am anger and joy

I am honest and deceitful

I am free and prude

I am generous and stingy

I am slave and tyrant

I am vulnerable and strong

I am harmony and conflict

I am light and shadow

I am feminine and masculine

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I am Love,

and I'm full of myself.

You are Love,

and I'm honest.

Love is a WHOLE.

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All you need is less

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With Love

Cloé

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